Messy
Messy.. .
that's how I feel.
I have exactly two and a half weeks left here in Wuhu, China. The space I've called home for the past three years of life; in fact, the whole of my post-college life.
there were times in the past few years I wondered if i'd even be able to make a living in the United States. as my return date looms overhead, those thoughts are beginning to mutate into subtle forms of anxiety and worry. I think that's normal. But I have to be careful not to let them run amuck in my heart... lest they become a sort of fear and paralysis.
I'm in the middle of a transition... and the rest of China along with me. In the past year i've felt the very quality of the air change (i'm not talking about pollution.) From the power structures of Beijing to the everyday people of Wuhu's ever widening streets. The tensions here are about to bubble over, emotions of all sort splattered together like a Pollack painting. Yea, it's angsty like that.
Messy.. .
but not beyond repair... two and a half weeks is enough time...
posted by Unknown @ 12:47 AM
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